Jus Chill

So I was talking to a friend of mine and we were talking about men and women and how some times we tend to take things too serious, and stop going with the flow. I must admit I'm guilty of doing just that. I had some running around to do this weekend I put some time aside to really thinking about what moves I need to make. I also hung out with a friend had a good time. I was talking to them about moving ,career plans etc......at first I was hesitant at the thought of moving but I thought about it I have no children it's about time I get out and explore. I'm beginning to make necessary changes. Sometimes life throws us a curve ball and we have to role with the punches, adjust accordingly, calculate your next move be 2 steps ahead.Right now I'm thinking of a master plan, getting my mind right (while sitting on the couch w/ my sexy panties on lmfao). I move to reach the next level in my life plan. Even though I am still in my 20's. All of this self -realization while wondering can I "Jus Chill" ? I working on certain traits and I haven't noticed that when I made them was a change for the better, god forbid nothing for the worse. Anything worth having is worth fighting for. I'm ready to move past the mundane and grind out. I think I can get back to the certain moral, principles,core values. Everyday encounters (in most cases) detour you from full filling your destiny.

I feel like a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis, I have taken some pretty tough circumstances and used them to grow. Now I am developing into something lovely and fantastic beyond my wildest imaginings. I also feel sexy, vibrant, mature, flirtatious, sensual,provocative...well you get the idea lmao. During times like these, it's good to remember how grateful you are -- not only for the easy things in your life, but for the tough circumstances as well. They've shaped you into someone amazing. Take a moment to honor yourself. My friend Tracey said to me yesterday you can either live life or LIVE life (so true mama). Even with all this self realization I am still confused (yes I can keep it 100) about certain aspects involving relationships (please note that when I speak of relationships it should always be considered general ex, family,friends, intimate unless otherwise noted) Can you just chill without losing yourself, being true to your core values, moral, and principles even though certain ideologies change ? Can you continue being the person you were before the relationship and still be considerate to someone else's feeling ?? Shit too much to think about how can you chill with all that shit on your mind ? I think most of people change when we are in relationships. I would like to think I do not I naturally love to cater and spoil my friends or partner. On the other hand there is nothing wrong with letting your inner child run free in moderation (something I should practice more often). Taking a step back to properly evaluate people in your life you to get to the core of what you want and need out your relationships. Some people fall in love with the idea of being in love. So when in the Jus chill phase I think you shouldn't rush things do not make a commitment if you are not ready for one, If you have to cut ninjaz and bitches off do that before making a commitment to someone else save yourself the headache. Please remember Karma is a bitch and will eat you alive do unto others .......

I have a list of things that I would like to do before I have children and some just before I leave this earth I have already started to implement them. So stay tuned I'm sure things are about to get VERY interesting....

Adios,

Pana