So I have been thinking, how did some people get so COLD or pretend to be. Life has a funny way of throwing us curve balls, we go thru hurt and pain it is a part of life. What I am trying to figure out is when does this pain influence a change in our behavior and personality ? When people become immune to feeling anything or just gave up giving a f*** . They have no remorse for the pain they cause or subjected to.
Now don't get me wrong I can be overly sensitive sometimes, but it comes a point when some people are plain ole nasty , disrespectful, and cold. time and time again you put your heart on the line whether it be family, friends, and intimate and in most cases continually get shitted on either they are ungrateful , unappreciative or too materialistic to see what you do for them and where your loyalty lies or the fact that maybe you try to compensate in other area " When she need help I'm right over her shoulder, when off track ma is keeping me focused" I know money makes the world go round but I guess I'm old school just because he tricking don't mean he love you . Anyway back to the subject at hand I refuse to be cold even though I have been hurt , heart broken I do not believe in someone paying for another person's mistakes. Also I treat people the way I would like to be treated being a better person. I know first hand it is harder to live your life the RIGHT way than you do whatever and step on whomever to get buy. God always paves a way for me to to go farther, do better and have been blessed with good karma. Are we really a product of our circumstances ? In life are we so blinded by the superficial that we let lose sight of our morals and principles and just think about what we can "Get" out of situations. Everyone wants a ride or die and loyalty but if your "cold" how can you expect something that you aren't or unwilling to give?!!! We should re- examine our "relationships" establish what went wrong move past it or get over it. It is unhealthy to harbor negative energy it blocks our blessings (positive energy). With that being said your perceived deficiencies, anxieties or cravings may be what is excluding you. Remember that you have options. You are a survivor, able to deal with the flaws of your partner, yourself ,family, and the cold shoulder from those who see your values as unusual or suspect. Either may be putting a strain on your love life or lack there of. You can find strength in adversity, so don't be too quick to curse your lot everything happens for a reason. Be willing to face the unknown hardships for the sake of future improvements, growth and acceptance. Soon you will be in a place where you can express yourself fully and let go some of the pain resentment for past hurt. People are attracted to vibrancy let that inner glow shine thru. I know it is good to be detached on some levels but you will shine a lot brighter when your melting not frozen. Maybe some good can come of this without being frozen you wouldn't know how it feels to burn with desire.
What are your thoughts ?
Ciao,
Pana
