Do You Know What You Really Want ?

I feel as though I am easy to please (but who doesn’t lol) I believe when you truly care for someone then they aren’t inconsistent, and most of all they will not be afraid to admit that they are involved with you, and have feelings for you etc. Some people try to front and act like they are so fucking private when in reality they are trying to keep their options open (then do not be with a relationship dick head).

Moving along before I start rambling lol, If you are the only one putting in effort to make your relationship work just let it go and let God (trust I know it sounds easier than it really is) you can not carry a relationship on your back (no pun intended). It is an equal partnership so if one person is getting what they want/need and your needs/wants are being sacrificed then it might be time to move on. Only you can decide your worth. I grew up in non-affectionate household and certain things that have happened in my past have me wanting certain things when I am in a relationship. The problem I have is being a people pleaser. I’ve dealt with too many selfish partners. Now I am not touchy feely but the occasional holding of hands, flowers, card, text, email, or even hand written letter is appreciated. Just show initiative dammit!!! Is that too much to ask? You deserve as much as you give If I give 110% I expect that in return not *% because that means I’m being cheated. Don’t settle just to say that you are in relationship. Trust the person you are in a relationship is going to tell you that everyone out there wants to use you or just fuck you. (Hi hater). I agree most not all people probably want to do that but out of the billions of people in America I’m sure you will find the person for you eventually that will love you unconditionally.

As much as it hurts to brake up, I learned that I really do want the things I used to be so afraid of: a home, marriage, and kids. It doesn’t make me weak or naïve to think it can work out someday, no matter what the current divorce rate is. After all, a truly independent woman knows what she wants and refuses to let anyone or anything -including her own fears –keep her from it. Keep ya head up. You deserve what you want and need. What goes around comes around. Ciao